Ok so here I am once again. But if I’m to be completely honest, with a bit of resistance. For a few reasons, I think:
First, a lot of my creative/writing energy has been going to crafting my next offer, Embody Your Story which I’m very, very excited about. It’s been 3 years since I’ve run a group program and it feels so right to do it now. I actually have been writing a lot: sales pages, emails, and transmissions of the course content. But that feels different than just writing for writing sake.
Second, I’m kind of running out of ideas? Well not that’s not completely true but when I first started on Substack I had multiple drafts from previous months that I could pick up and polish. Half-fleshed out ideas, poems never published, etc. Now, when I come to write I typically have to start with a blank page. Which feels daunting.
You know what would be really nice? A solo writer’s retreat. Maybe I’d go to a cozy cabin in the forest, or a vibey lux hotel. It sounds equally wonderful and exhausting. But to be completely honest, if I were to go away anywhere by myself I’d probably just sleep.
Lastly, I’ve noticed when there is a lot of turmoil in the world, I tend to go inwards. Partially because I don’t really know what to say or I don’t want to be insensitive to what’s going on but mostly, it’s because my nervous system is quite overwhelmed. It’s a protection mechanism that I’m completely okay with.
The internet can get pretty intense and for me, it feels safer and more nourishing to keep to myself/ to my in-person community. But with that said, I’m still in this dance of wanting to express and write even when it feels like too much. So this is my way of titrating the experience. Simply writing something.
If you’re also noticing that your nervous system is feeling a little frazzled/overwhelmed I really recommend in-person connection. Even, if you aren’t able to physically meet your loved ones, get off social media and give a friend a call. Go to a coffee shop and make small talk with the barista. Delete Instagram and spend an extra 15 minutes talking to your partner tonight.
We aren’t meant to take in so much information at once. And yet as I say this, I’ll admit I get caught in these spirals as well.
I understand the circumstances for each individual are different so I have a lot of compassion for wherever you are in this. I hope you also have space to tend to your heart.
So to come back to the beginning, I met this week’s writing practice with a bit of resistance but no force. I showed up to whatever wanted to come through in this moment. And here we are. Once again.
Maybe next week I’ll have something actually planned, but who knows! This is my practice of letting go a bit and going with the flow.